The One

I was watching Ever After the other night - one of my favorite movies - and I always thought the lines exchanged between Prince Henry and Leonardo da Vinci were interesting:

Henry: Do you really think there is only one perfect mate?

Leonardo da Vinci: As a matter of fact, I do.

Henry: Well then how can you be certain to find them? And if you do finally find them, are they really the one for you or do you only think they are? And what happens if the person you're supposed to be with never appears, or she does, but you're too distracted to notice?

Leonardo da Vinci: You learn to pay attention.

Henry: Then let's say God puts two people on Earth and they are lucky enough to find one another. But one of them gets hit by lightning. Well then what? Is that it? Or, perchance, you meet someone new and marry all over again. Is that the lady you're supposed to be with or was it the first? And if so, when the two of them were walking side by side were they both the one for you and you just happened to meet the first one first or was the second one supposed to be first? And is everything just chance or are some things meant to be?

I know time and again a lot has been written and said about the subject of The One. because how do you ever really know? Or what if you're so scared you'll never find The One that you settle for the first person who comes along and end up miserable for the rest of your life? I wonder how many people that has happened to. I don't think anyone has got it all figured out yet, and I certainly do not, nor do I think anyone ever will. Personally, I believe The One exists for every single person on this planet, and I think that the passage of time in the relationship doesn't matter, you can be together a month or a year and you know if the person you are with is The One or not. I don't know why you would stay with someone for a year if they were not The One, but whatever. Some people just aren't ready for grown-up relationships and that's fine too. That was not intended to be a jab at Adam in anyway, but honestly after everything we went through, he just wasn't ready for the intensity that came with our relationship. I think with him I really, really wanted him to be The One, but deep down I knew it just wasn't happening and he really wasn't meant for me. That doesn't mean we will ever stop loving each other, but the love is changing now that we have both found the relationships we were meant to be in. Well, I have at least, I know he can do better than Ashley, he can do waaaaaay better. I will even help him find someone better than her, gross. This rant doesn't have entirely to do with my current relationship situation either, it is just something some people and I were talking about at work the other day in addition to me watching the movie. I do, however, know that I am butt-crazy in love with Drake and can definitely admit it any time, any where. At this point however, that is all I am willing to admit on my blog, because after all, Blogs Are Lame. I was just wondering what other people thought of this subject because I know there are definitely many varying viewpoints.

Ramblings

I know it has been a long time since I have posted anything, sorry. Most of you probably quit checking it by now and are fed up with my lack of motivation. Sorry, I have just been busy working lately.

I talked to Adam again last night. He came home yesterday instead of today and I don't think I am going to get to see him at all, not even the day he leaves, which is June 17th. Talking to him on the phone is good and bad, because I like hearing his voice, but I also know that it means I am that much closer to the last time I will hear his voice for a year. I also probably won't get to see him on the day he leaves because his girlfriend has a major complex and is basically a dumb bitch about everything. So much for him having a mind of his own. Not even Silas can get Adam out of her grasp, he's tried. It's too bad, because let's face it, she isn't cute at all, and she has fat arms.

So this past weekend was one of the most orgasmic times of my life! The Huskers became Region Champs at Haymarket, beating the University of Illinois-Chicago on Friday, Creighton on Saturday, and then again on Sunday. I HATE Creighton. And no I know what you guys are all thinking and I do not hate Creighton because of HER. I hate Creighton for the pure and simple reason that Creighton sucks. On Saturday a bunch of people booed Colin Shockey when he was up to bat and some stupid Creighton fan was like, "Have some class." She then proceeded to talk shit about those of us who booed him to her equally as bitchy friend. That's not showing much class either, but hey, all I pretty much said was, "Whatever bitch, Creighton fans are ten times worse than Husker fans whenever we play at Rosenblatt in Omaha so shut your stupid mouth you dumb bitch." I was not going to take any shit from some stupid Omaha bitch. I don't think I know a single decent person from Omaha aside from my Sisters. There are a few here and there, but otherwise Omaha basically blows ass and sucks ass at the same time. I guess everyone has to have a talent. Ah well. On the plus side, I got a picture taken with Jesse Boyer after we won Regions on Sunday. He's gorgeous, and that's nice.

The bad part about this weekend is my friends from Indiana did not come because while they have the ability to talk to me about the weekend, they unfortunately do not know how to communicate to one another. Not a huge deal, Buttons just knows he is on my shit list until he makes it up to me, so all is well. And Zach has pretty much been non-existent, but everyone is busy and shit happens.

Kayleen and I have a few cute little surprises planned for Teetz's birthday and I of course can not say them here because Teetz reads this, but let's just say for once he won't be annoyed by something I do, because it's his 21st birthday and I am going to be completely and totally nice to him the whole day. I will not say one word about banging his brother, there will be no 'no penis' jokes, no' your mom' jokes, nothing. I will not utter the phrase 'cockblock' at any time during the day, and so on. Now that I read that list, I realize I should in general probably be nicer anyway. But he says mean stuff to me too, so I can at least give him one day. I know we're going out to dinner on his actual birthday, the 16th, but he has not chosen a place yet and if he doesn't soon, then Kayleen and I might just have to choose for him. I am so going to choose Chuck E Cheese. Gross. Ha ha.

Some guys are such mindfucks and it drives me nuts, but in a good way. I thought we moved out of the name-calling and arm-punching as flirting tools when we moved into middle school, but I guess not. Sadly, I still think it is cute. Maybe not so sadly, cuz that's kind of how I operate sometimes too. Either way, sometimes I wish a guy would just have the guts to say, "Hey, let's go out to dinner sometime." If we're both so obvious in our flirting that other people notice it, then it's about time someone does something about it. On the other hand, we're both just flirts anyway, so it might mean nothing. I haven't decided yet. I am being picky these days, don't want to end up with a dud, literally or figuratively.

I went to that Mongolian grill place tonight with Teetz, Brett, and Drake. It was decent but not worth the price. I don't know, maybe I just wasn't hungry. I haven't been again lately and it's kind starting to worry me again. I think it partially has to do with Adam and him leaving but it feels different this time, it's bigger, beyond him, even beyond my control anymore. Oh well, I'll jump that hurdle when I get to it.

On Monday at work, one of the nicest things ever happened to me and it left me feeling kind of sad, because in all honesty, I realized what a horrible person I am. Back in the first week I started working at Office Depot, this nice older gentleman came in to make copies, he usually does a couple times a week. He is a regular of course so he knew I was a new cashier and was asking me questions about school and my major and everything. I told him I was el ed and he mentioned his wife had co-authored a book entitled, 'Resources for Creative Teaching in Early Childhood Education'. He said I should check it out and see if it would be helpful. Well, I looked at it online and then at Barnes and Noble special ordered it because it really seemed like it would help me, there were great ideas in it. Then I found out it was over one hundred dollars which kinda made me put on the brakes a little. Well, on Monday I got a phone call at work, and it was the man, Harold, asking how long I would be at work because he had some copies to make and he wanted to give me a copy of the book. I honestly could not believe it. This man, who barely knew me at all, was giving me this incredible gift. I know a lot of you are probably going, 'Oh big deal, it's a book', but it's not just the book itself, but the act of generosity surrounding it. He did not have to do this, and what means even more is that it has his wife's name in it and on several pages she had marked things where changes need to be made, etc. She passed away a few years ago and he said that he knew I was someone who could get a lot of use out of it and that she would not want it to just sit on a shelf collecting dust. I was just so amazed that people like him exist, I almost started crying. And not because I'm a big crybaby, but because it was one of the nicest things someone has ever done for me. I felt like such an awful person after that because I have never done anything to deserve this, he did this because he wanted to and that's the kind of person I do want to be; the kind who does stuff for other people because they want to, not because of any kind of gain they might receive. And the book is amazing, there is a lot I will be able to use when I student teach even, and when I have my own classroom too. Wow. That's all, just wow.

Days til Teetz is legal: 7!

Ramblings

I've hung out with Teetz pretty much every day since he and I have been back in Lincoln and when I am not at work. In fact, I am at his apartment right now because we just layed out by the pool all morning. Kayleen will be here in a while and all in all, it is a pretty lazy Thursday afternoon.

I really like my job. Granted, it is just Office Depot and won't be my career, nor is it in any way actually related to my career, but I like the people I work with and they have all been really helpful during training. I trained yesterday and Tuesday on the register and tomorrow I am on my own. Well, there will always be someone around to help me out but mostly I will be on my own and Jo won't be on stand-by to fix anything I do wrong.

I have given up trying to figure out the male mind. For the most part guys are extremely simple creatures and think of few things but sex, food, sex, sports, sex, and (sometimes) cars. Then you meet that one who still thinks about all these things all the time, but is highly intelligent too and seems to be able to play mind games as good as any female. Those are the tricky guys you have to watch out for. Too bad they're usually so damn cute (personality and looks combined) that you can't help but liking them even though you know they are probably not good for you. Sometimes I am a sucker for guys like this, as Silas pointed out in a recent phone conversation. Thanks Si. ;)

Okay, enough babbling, time for lunch, Teetz made us grilled cheese sandwiches.

Days til Teetz is legal: 20!